So I took a hiatus from blogging. Whatever. My life last semester was crazy…but nothing compared to life this semester. I have been elected as Public Relations Chairman of Delta Zeta, which I’m stoked about, I’m taking 16 hours and want a 4.0 this semester, and to top it all off I’m fat. This poses a major problem because I want to be on the tug team for DZ during Greek Week…which means I have some major pounds to lose and some major muscle to gain.
Therefore, I am returning to the blog world to put my personal struggles out in public. Splendid. (I’m not really sure anybody reads this though, so I’m cool with it.) My plan is to post my progress as I go…probably weekly since I’m so busy.
Here are my stats:
I weigh 165 pounds today. When I last measured, I was: neck, 14, waist, 31, and hips 39. My goal weight is 130, and I want to be there like yesterday. Encouragement is encouraged.
So, I have almost completed my first year of college. This has definitely been the fastest school year of my life, and sometimes I feel like I have done nothing at all. I worry that I’m not going to have any memories from this year, but when I really think back on the year, I realize that I do have a lot of them. Here’s a list of VERY FEW.
1. I have rearranged my dorm room 5 times…and I have to rearrange it again before I can move out.
2. I have gotten two speeding tickets (and I feel really really bad about them).
3. I have made 59769867043958 late-night Sonic runs.
4. I have pulled 10 all-nighters.
5. I have written no less than 20 papers and completed no less than 10 projects.
6. I spent 3 weeks living with Hannah, and we quoted movies every night until we fell asleep.
7. I spent countless hours watching Hannah and Kaylee study Chemistry while I praised the Lord that I was a Mass Comm major.
8. I have made some awesome friends like Lindsey, Kelsey, Thomas, Davis, Catherine, Bekah, Sam, and Bre-Bre.
Can you tell that lists are my thing? These are so vague and don’t even come close to covering my whole year, but it is a reminder that I have experienced a whole lot.
Not only have I experienced a lot, but I have learned a lot too. For example, I have learned a lot about calculating probability and interpreting statistics. I have learned how to write an effective paper with a solid argument. I have learned about composers and government and communication. I have learned absolutely nothing about philosophy.
Something I have come to realize, though, is that college is just as much about getting to know myself as it is about getting an education. I have grown to really know myself in a way that only being somewhat independent can teach you. I have learned that I will not always get it my way, and I will not always have the easiest path to travel in life. I have learned that getting let down SUCKS, but you just have to keep moving and not give up.
I have learned a lot about patience, and how important that quality is when you live with someone other than the people you have lived in a house with your whole life. I have learned that while being a planner is a good thing, sometimes you just have to have a little spontaneous fun. I have learned that nothing ever goes the way you expect it to or the way you plan for, so it is important to keep low expectations.
Finally, I have learned that 19 is only a measure of how long I have been on this planet. It is not an indicator of maturity or of how much knowledge I have accumulated over that time. I remember there being a time in my life that 19 (and getting closer and closer to 20) seemed so old…but now that I’m here I feel like I should be about ten years older. I have learned that (generally speaking) I don’t act like people my age, or talk like people my age, or party like people my age…but I think I’m alright with that, finally. The best thing I have learned over the past school year is to love myself, no matter what I think others think of me. I feel like getting to this point in my life is a learning process that matters most of all…because I’m stuck with myself for the rest of my life.
So, for all you high school seniors at prom tonight…remember that you’re about to go on a ROLLER COASTER over the next year of your life. I truly believe I have come to grips with more changes over the past 12 months of my life than ever before. It is a fun ride, though. =)
Just thought I would share what all I have left to do before summer and the end of the semester.
On this Wednesday I have a statistics test and online homework due.
On this Thursday I have an English portfolio and a philosophy paper due.
On this Friday I have an English paper due.
On next Monday I have my final speech.
On next Wednesday I have my statistics final.
On next Thursday I have my mass media final, my philosophy final, and my English final revision due.
Then I will be home! So, think good (and productive) thoughts for me over the next ten days, pretty please!
So, my first year at Georgia College is winding down. To be honest, I’m happy about this. In the following list you will learn why I’m happy about this. Enjoy.
1. My room at home is much bigger, more private, and cleaner. No, seriously. I’m about to pull my hair out.
2. Core classes are pointless and they are currently ruining my life. I’m not exaggerating. I have an indisputable A in my Mass Media class and my Communication (public speaking) class. Both of those will aide me later in life. However, I’m hoping for a B in Philosophy (probably won’t happen) and praying for an A in both English 1102H and Statistics. I’m never going to analyze literature, calculate stats, or bullshit (well, maybe a little, but I already knew how to do that) in my Big Girl Job.
3. I. Miss. My. Mommy. And my dad and my brother. But mostly I miss my mommy.
4. It is getting hot in Milledgeville again. I mean humid, sticky, hit you in the face when you walk out the door hot. Not fun.
So yeah. That’s why I’m glad it is over. However, I have learned a LOT this year. Here’s another list of those things.
1. Don’t take Mommy for granted.
2. I have gained a lot of patience. Living with three people who seem incapable of cleaning up their own messes has probably started the process of preparing me for parenthood…much much much later down the road.
3. When your parents say “Be careful coming home!” or “Be careful going back!” they really mean “Drive the speed limit!” …You should probably listen. Starting the year with a Greene County ticket and ending the year with a Baldwin County ticket sucks pretty hard. Word to the wise: don’t speed. This means you, Ashley Anderson and Lauren McGarity.
4. Have fun. You can’t study all the time. The library is a wonderful place, but after a while it can start to get a little like prison.
5. Don’t write off friends from home. I thought I wouldn’t like having several people from high school at the same college as me, but I don’t know what I would do if Hannah, Kaylee, Josh, and Justin weren’t here. They are always here for me no matter what. Even when I had a flat tire…thanks Justin!
6. Don’t be afraid to do things on the fly. Every second of every day doesn’t have to be planned…I know, I know, it was news to me too. I don’t like being unstructured, but sometimes a random trip to Macon is fun. Or hanging out at a friend’s apartment until 4 in the morning watching movies.
This is a very limited list…there are so many other things that could be on here. I have enjoyed this year, and I have enjoyed getting to know myself better, but I’m ready to go home for 3 months to regroup.
So, today was one of those days.
You know that feeling where you just don’t feel like yourself? It is a hard feeling to describe.
It is 3:00 AM, and I’m pretty sure that for once I am the only person awake on my hall. It is a strange thing, all this quiet.
This is a very melancholy post…I just felt like writing out how I feel right this second. Kinda like I want to cry, but I have nothing to cry about. It is strange, really. I’m not sleepy, and I know I need to study some more for my Philosophy test. But honestly, I just feel like sitting here.
I’m tired of this semester. My classes all suck, with the single exception of Mass Media. I’m ready to go home for 3 months and regroup. I’m ready to be out of my cardboard box of a dorm room.
I’m ready to be older, so that my personality will match my age. I don’t enjoy trying to act 19 while I think like I’m 29. It is exhausting, frankly.
I don’t know what exactly I’m trying to say here. Maybe this post is more just for me to clear my head than to make some dramatic impression on a reader.
Yesterday, I experienced one of the best things to date about losing weight and getting in shape. Mom and I went shopping…and I walked out of Express with three bags FULL of clothes that not only fit me, but looked really good on me! I wasn’t settling for things that fit and “would do,” but I actually REALLY liked the items that we purchased!
Now you may be thinking “Doesn’t everyone always have ‘luck’ when they go shopping? Don’t I always love the things I purchase?” If you are thinking this, then you, my friend, are lucky. I normally get a few things that fit and I wear them, but I haven’t always truly enjoyed the clothes I bought. Maybe this is where the joy of losing weight and toning up comes in. I enjoyed shopping. Trying things on was not a chore, but rather it was fun because I felt like I looked good in all of those wonderful pieces.
It was a simply wonderful experience. I love clothes that look good on me. I am working hard to keep it that way. =)
I have several things on my mind tonight.
1. As happy as I am that I do not live on or near a major fault line, my heart continues to break for the poor souls in Japan. I cannot imagine the devastation and pain they feel over the loss of loved ones and the destruction of their cities. I keep reading new articles about the situation over there and I just cannot stand it.
2. The ACCPD is missing one officer and patiently awaiting the recovery of another. I know that God works in mysterious ways and that somehow this is relevant in the end, but I don’t understand why that man had to lose his life. Things like this just don’t make sense to me. That cop was just trying to do his job and it ended this way. I pray that the suspect is found and brought into custody as quickly as possible.
3. I’m very sad for my hometown. We have received WAY too much negative media in the past few months. First there was the History Channel making us all out to be kooks with the Guidestones. Then there was the Beauty Shop Burglars. Now there is a double homicide that didn’t happen in the county, but Elberton is all over it. Can we please catch a break and have somebody do something memorable in a GOOD way? Guess I better kick it into high gear to try to make the President’s List. Maybe that would be a small piece of good media.
4. Number three makes me think of how much I truly do love this town. Milledgeville is good and dandy, but it is nice being home sometimes where everybody knows your name and there is always somebody who wants to know “How is your Grandaddy doing?” I don’t think I would care so much about the bad things that go on around here if I didn’t care about the place so much.
On a lighter note, here is a list of some things that make me happy:
1. I have found that if I say nice things to my legs, they run for longer. For example, tonight I told them that they were pretty even though they don’t look much like Gisele’s legs and that they are probably much stronger than her stilts. I ran twice as far. Ha.
2. I’m still at home for Spring Break. Best week of the year so far. =)
3. I only have to live in my cardboard box (dorm room) for five weeks and six days.
4. I’m hanging out with my mom on Saturday. What’s not to love?
I hope you all have a fantastic Friday!
